“I believe that when we were active alcoholics we drank mostly to kill pain of one kind or another- physical or emotional or psychic. Of course, everybody has a cracking point, and I supposed you reached yours- hence, the resort once more to the bottle.
“If I were you, I wouldn’t heap devastating blame on myself for this; on the other hand, the experience should redouble your conviction that alcohol has no permanent value as a pain-killer.”


“In every A.A. story, pain has been the price of admission into a new life. But this admission price purchased more than we expected. It led us to a measure of humility, which we soon discovered to be a healer of pain. We began to fear pain less, and desire humility more then ever.”

1. Letter, 1959
2. Twelve and Twelve Pg. 75

Here is Howard P.’s experience, strength, and hope